take off~

oh yeah! i will not on9-ing for 1 month coz i have suspended my broadband for 1 month due to my fucking exam that will coming soon. huh! haha but still here i am, updating my blog, i borrowed my friend's bband. dess... btw, on the 24th april 2010, i was having dinner with my class Al-Farabi, and even though the foods were not really delicious (for me), still it was a nice dinner that we had. oh ya, the pics u can see direct through my facebook, but i have not uploaded mine yet. ngeee. will upload the pics soon. ok. i think that's enough for now. i want to sleep. hehe =)

i need someone who really listening to me!!!

can i find someone who really listening to every little thing that i said? even though maybe it's just a small little tiny matter to u, but it's big and important to me. it's a BIG matter to me. ya la, sy tau la sy sepa. unimportant person in ur life. bh ya la... to u, i'm just a useless person who talking craps all the time. sometimes, i really can't understand u. u are so unpredictable. u r lucky i love u. my friend has share a thought to me today when i told him that it's good to have someone who really listening to me, at least i have one today (but it's not u). he said, "Love all, trust a few, and do wrong to no one". huh... i wish i can follow that.

miss my little star~

=)

nothing much to be updated. this blog is just about my life, and i have nothing special to share today. final exam is just around the corner, meaning i will gone crazy soon. never mind, it is just an exam anyway. what's there to be afraid of? haha punya tembirang sa ni. =)

i miss my little star again. wish i can go back to times where all things were still normal. i wish i was opening my eyes that time, seeing ur pics, and not fall in love with u. why am i so stupid by closing my eyes that time. maybe i just didn't want to lose that feeling. and now, i'm stuck with this unexplainable feeling. and can't get away from it.
haha... don't mind about what i have wrote just now. i know no people understand it. i'm just babbling over here. =)

wish the best for everything in my life. i love my little star. =)

i am a girl with pride

ok, this is my opinion, from a perspective of a girl. yesterday, 1 of my friend said, "why do they have to be so obsessed about that sexual harassment thingy?" OMG. for God's sake, u r a girl my dear friend. please, if u don't want to stand for women's right it's ok (fuck u) but please do not think that every one is thinking the same like u. u said "the guys touch me like this pun me x kisah?" shit! that is u! we r not cheap like u! I AM NOT CHEAP LIKE U (note the word cheap once again). kalau mau open minded pun, ada batasan jg. bukan suka hati mau bagi guys sentuh2 ur body. again, u r a GIRL. omg, correct me if i'm wrong. do not make me hate u once again. i lost my respect to u before, and it seems after i rebuilt it back, it's gonna blow once again. u want sampai u kena rogol ka baru u mau shut up? don't talk like u know everything bout girls and boys because u don't! obviously. yesterday u talked about our "obsess" (fuck u again) with a guy and u know what he said? he doesn't support u at all. that's a shame u know. shame on u. SHAME ON U!!! u said u terus terang punya orang kan? so why talk behind us? come see us face2face and tell us, apa yg u x puas hati. bkn u yg kena molest worr, so u don't know. u really doesn't look like a bitch, and i can't understand how can u look this matter as simple as ABC? u r more caring towards the guys yg molest2 org than the victims. what's wrong with ur fishy head? i am so damn mad at u right now. UNGKIT LAGI! why u wanna ungkit balik ni perkara? i thought we already done? and ya, i wonder why u sibuk2 hal org? bkn u yg kena molest. go get a life bitch friend! wah lao... u really pissed me off. shit.

annoying

i am really ANNOYED by some people lately.
feeling stress and sometimes wondering how STUPID they can be?
i have my own life, u also have yours.
why don't u just let me live my life peacefully,and u live ur life the way u want?
just, stop and shut up the craps okay?
wtf~

Slow Tears

I look up
as a tear rolls slowly
down my cheek
I think about better days
and wonder if I'll feel that way again
you look at me
with those eyes I know so well
always serious, so deep and insightful
as though you're always in control
But not today
not now
Now you look so scared
like for once you don't have the answer
I gaze at you
looking deep into those hazel eyes
Hoping to understand
why you've said those things you did
I wonder for a moment
if this is all a dream
if I shall wake in the morning
and be relieved
you look at me
with a confusion I have never seen
slowly pull me towards you
and wipe the tears from my cheek

class, going out, NFS again

today i woke up at 1.19p.m... miahahaha! straight took my shower and go to class. masih mamai2 lg ni sampai di class. haha. got many tips from en. lee for summative exam later. good2~ and then me, san, pypee and ijet went to The Store @ Milimewah hahaha. JK k. that amoy said my NFS couldn't be opened because i installed it in C drive. wtf. how am i suppose to know that. and then ijet got her second time piercing. haha. kinda fun and exciting to see her takut2 face. haha. LOL =)

i think i have lied to a person today... biar lah dia x kisah jg tu. let me keep this alone. but, i'm not pilling on my agony okay? it's just, hmm, let time heals everything.

ok now i'm fixing my NFS wtf again, hopefully after this i can have a little fun with it. i need something to make me happy. please please please~~~

class, lappy, ticket, pkd, wtf

huh... i can't sleep, again... today we will have class with en. lee for pelupusan kumbahan's topic. after class maybe we go straight to The Store (haha more like milimewah in sabah) to fix my lappy (uhu...actually i can't open my NFS wtf), and also for the dress...omg i'm going to wear a dress for our class dinner at Saujana-forgot-its-name on 24th this month... last time i wore a dress for dinner function was on 2007 at sutera harbour (sabah jg ba yg best hahaha). later wanna find heels lg. omg heels hahaha. hopefully i will not falling down that night. eeeeuuwww... they changed the tagline. it supposed to be "An Evening to Remember" but they changed it into "Nightfall of Remembrance". haiz...

i miss my home. argh! sabar casey 1 bulan lg...eee... i really hate it that i can't change my attachment at Beluran's PKK. yaikss... i don't wanna go to PKD sandakan for God's sake... 2 weeks?? i'm going to stay at sandakan for 2 weeks, by myself, alone and so pathetic. after a stressful holiday have to go back to hell college. sudah lah balik bulan 5 ni sy slh beli tiket. I'M GOING BACK ALONE THIS SEM!!!

lalalala~~ biar lah... Miss my Little Star...<3

dizzy...
heartache...
headache...
haiz...

wtf u think u perfect meh?

you are not PERFECT too so don't talk about other people's weaknesses. i just hate the way you talk about it, and hey beyotch friend, you aren't perfect too. so wake up, don't think that everybody's around u is like whatever u say. their hair colors are the same, but their hearts are different. open ur eyes widely, and u'll see how many people hate ur bullshitness that u've created. remember, the world doesn't revolve around u only. please please please look urself at ur mirror, ask urself are u perfect enough to talk other's weaknesses. don't get to excited with urself coz someday, somehow, u will have ur turn where people staring at u and whispering to each other. aha! and oh yeah, do not simply pass over ur fault to someone else okay. it's not nice. it's really bitchy u know. ok, i'm enough. suit urself while waiting for ur turn. hooooo wtf.

p/s: do not talk about my friends like "that" anymore. u might become my next punching bag. :)

actually i'm suppose to revise my food tech right now; tomorrow got test oww. it will be counted as our carry marks. huhu... today got microbiology's exhibition for 2nd sem IK's student. huuuu.... haven't read any note to present later... ngee~ moron.
i feel so sleepy (padahal masih sempat ni tulis blog lol), and i think i will just start reading my food tech today, if got free time during the exhibition. ngeee~~ i called my mum just now, and talked to my brothers. i rarely see them, but i don't miss them much. but still, i miss them. hehe... sot. im thinking about my next allowance. what my plan is... haven't arrange my budget yet. it's not even two weeks from my last allowance last month, i'm already run out of money. kuang3. apa jg yg sy beli ni taw. kuat makan... gosh i really need to control my eating habit, i'm getting bigger day after day!~~~~

i don't love u

why u don't get it.
i said i don't have any feeling for u, i just love u as a friend. not more.
please... i'm in the same condition in forgetting the one that i truly love, so please...
do not say i don't understand how u feel.
i don't wanna hurt ur feelings anymore.
let's start a new life.
open a new book, new page, and write new stories...
i hope u can find someone else better than me...
God bless u.

Happy Easter!!!

it's weekend again. but this weekend is not the same like other weekends. it's a HOLY WEEKEND!! yeah! Easter is coming. Happy Easter to everyone who celebrating it. anyway, tomorrow am going to church. hehe. last night my friends and i also went to church, Light of Christ Church at Kepong. this is my first time attending a sunset mass for Good Friday cuz at Sabah the mass for Good Friday usually start at 3pm. anyway, it still a mass for Good Friday, so it doesn't matter. =) Have a blessing Easter and may God bless us. =)