Just A Thought

What would you if you’re feeling sad or down? When you yourself don’t know the reason behind all of your misery, you started to tear up and cry like hell. Well at least it makes you feel better. But for some reason, you cannot cry yourself out. You cannot talk to anybody about what is going on in your mind, or what you actually feel in your heart, because you afraid they might not understand you. They might laugh at you in their head instead of trying to comfort you or trying to figure it out together with you. But thing is, you actually know the reason behind your sadness deep down inside of you. You know it too well you started to deny it every now and then. You tell yourself that it doesn’t matter to be in that state, because it will pass. Everything shall pass. The sadness and burden that you carry on your shoulder will eventually fly away on the wings of time. Yet you do not sure when that day will come. Like they said, it is day one or one day; you choose. It takes time to heal every wound. The deeper the wound, the longer time it will take; some may say. And when the wound heal, the scars then remain there forever. Just to remind you not to repeat the same mistake again. It is not stupid when you make mistake, because from it you are learning something. At least it means something to you. We’re growing by making mistakes, and thus by mistakes make us learn to be a little wiser in making decision in the next time. 

standing up again

Everything happens in our lives has it own reason, even we wish we knew what the reason is sometimes. People come and go in our lives, simply taught us the things we haven't learn before. So next time we'll know what to do. There's a reason why God put some people in our lives. When God moves a person in your life, He is letting you know that you have learned everything you need to know from that person. That person has learned everything he needs to know from you. Just live your live to the fullest and never let others down you. Shits happen, none taken. Just flush and move on.

kaamatan~

this weekend and and the whole next week will be my another 'long' holiday, well guys i can't take hols for too long and for some reasons, i just don't know why. T___T but it's okay, i think i am gonna enjoy myself, err i really hope so. i am coming back for Tadau Kaamatan, which means harvest festival but i don't think i'll be able to celebrate kaamatan with my family. @.@

lately i've been doing things that i never done before in my whole life. i don't think i'm crazy but i think it is just a step for a new episode. i just hope for an happy ending. yeay. but putting too much hope will hurt too much too. sooooo..... i don't know. :D:D:D

and i am excited about tomorrow, i am going to Danum Valley! except for the fact that i have to replace my friend to give a talk about leptospirosis. i will talk about rats, cats, pigs etc. fark. and the boss of the resort said we can go for safari night after finish everything. waaaa.... can't wait. and today is also packed with activities. have farewell dinner for one of our colleague and then straight for outreach activities, hiv screening. and we'll see chicks running here and there, again. lol.

Aww.. It's 2013 and I'm Late

Things changed. I am a working person now. Currently staying and working at Lahad Datu, Sabah. Yeah, the place where everyone is afraid of to set their foots. I feel okay here, now that things have slowly cool down. It gets better I guess. No more fires, guns, bombs, hurm. Maybe. :0

Being as a working person is actually kinda exhausted. Now I know. And my working life here is getting hard when Lahad Datu get its hit from the Sulu army. Too many works that I have to cope with. It is okay, I gained experiences from it. Not many people have the chance like we have in here, even though some people might say, it is crazy to be here. Yes, it's crazy. But we tried our best to make things better. Remember we were not trained to face situation like this. I am tired, but at least I learned something.

And lately, I've been taking some decision that I am not really sure whether it's gonna make me happy or drag me into something more miserable than ever. I am trying to forget. And yet I am still trying. I always said to my friends, never jump into a new relationship just because you want to forget somebody. Cuz it will hurts the new one. Your heart and mine are still aching. But I hope that we can make it right. Lets take chances together. I love you.

Waiting for "Love Letter"

I'm waiting for my 'love letter' to arrive safely in my mail box. I am now currently at home, guyang kaki doing nothing. It almost drives me insane. I am so bored. Mo jalan but duit tiada. No job no money laa. Sienz. I was wondering about looking for a temporary job before but yeah, talk but no action won't bring you anywhere. So my 'love letter', please come faster. I need youuuu. =.='

Sabah Youth Day 3 is just around the corner. This time it will be held at Tambunan on the 20th of August until 24th of August this year. It is my first time joining SYD so yaa I am excited. :) Hopefully everything will be just fine.

Since I'm at home only, my daily routines are all the same. Wake up in the morning, cleaning the house, cooking lunch, part time nursery for my 4 younger brothers, eat, shower, making dinner, online all day etc. Short word, every day is the same! Oh my english. Oh yes, I'm watching Oh My English on TVIQ. It's a very good learning programme actually. Don't forget to watch OME on TVIQ every Sunday 10.30a.m. lolzz.

Baaa ok. Babaii~~

bored hols

Currently at home. Will be back to college this Wednesday for my 1 week induction starting on this 8th of June. Hope everything will run smoothly without any problems. After that will come back to Sabah on the 17th of June. 3 years has passed. How time flies. And then if God's will, I will start my working life soon. Yaiii. I don't think I'm ready for this. =.='

There's nothing much to do at home. Besides taking care of my jajal brothers, I only spent my whole day playing poker. It drives me insane when lose too much chips. fml. There's nothing to do, really. huhaii.

And I don't have anything else to update. Oh ya, I passed my final exam. Thank God. :)
Am going to play poker back. Take care fellas. :D

formative's exam tretetettttt~

Exam for formative already over and ya, i'm glad! ekekeke. Now only have to finish my research, print out everything, be ready for practical exam and last going back to college for final exam! o.m.g. I am almost at the end of my journey in my study at KSKB Sungai Buloh as a Health Inspector trainee. So far, i feel okay. But the truth is, i don't have any courage to go back there to college. I'm scared. I leave the rest in God's hands. Ok, that's all the updates for now. See ya!

p/s: I am a big fan of Christina Grimmie for now! LOL. xD