hey hey~~

hai2! it's been a long time since my last post. i am currently having my practical at Beluran, and will be ended by tomorrow! wahahaha i feel so good and relief that it will be ended soon. 2 weeks of practical is just killing me somehow. And then i will be back to my college on 2th July, huh~ can't enjoy anymore. and my report is not done yet. Not much things had happened during this holiday. It's just an ordinary holiday. O ya, i joined the Unduk Ngadau for the first time in my life. God, i was shaking on the stage. haha. my my.. it was a good experience after all. hehe. ok, i have to go. this evening got premises to be surveyed. hihi. tata~

take off~

oh yeah! i will not on9-ing for 1 month coz i have suspended my broadband for 1 month due to my fucking exam that will coming soon. huh! haha but still here i am, updating my blog, i borrowed my friend's bband. dess... btw, on the 24th april 2010, i was having dinner with my class Al-Farabi, and even though the foods were not really delicious (for me), still it was a nice dinner that we had. oh ya, the pics u can see direct through my facebook, but i have not uploaded mine yet. ngeee. will upload the pics soon. ok. i think that's enough for now. i want to sleep. hehe =)

i need someone who really listening to me!!!

can i find someone who really listening to every little thing that i said? even though maybe it's just a small little tiny matter to u, but it's big and important to me. it's a BIG matter to me. ya la, sy tau la sy sepa. unimportant person in ur life. bh ya la... to u, i'm just a useless person who talking craps all the time. sometimes, i really can't understand u. u are so unpredictable. u r lucky i love u. my friend has share a thought to me today when i told him that it's good to have someone who really listening to me, at least i have one today (but it's not u). he said, "Love all, trust a few, and do wrong to no one". huh... i wish i can follow that.

miss my little star~

=)

nothing much to be updated. this blog is just about my life, and i have nothing special to share today. final exam is just around the corner, meaning i will gone crazy soon. never mind, it is just an exam anyway. what's there to be afraid of? haha punya tembirang sa ni. =)

i miss my little star again. wish i can go back to times where all things were still normal. i wish i was opening my eyes that time, seeing ur pics, and not fall in love with u. why am i so stupid by closing my eyes that time. maybe i just didn't want to lose that feeling. and now, i'm stuck with this unexplainable feeling. and can't get away from it.
haha... don't mind about what i have wrote just now. i know no people understand it. i'm just babbling over here. =)

wish the best for everything in my life. i love my little star. =)

i am a girl with pride

ok, this is my opinion, from a perspective of a girl. yesterday, 1 of my friend said, "why do they have to be so obsessed about that sexual harassment thingy?" OMG. for God's sake, u r a girl my dear friend. please, if u don't want to stand for women's right it's ok (fuck u) but please do not think that every one is thinking the same like u. u said "the guys touch me like this pun me x kisah?" shit! that is u! we r not cheap like u! I AM NOT CHEAP LIKE U (note the word cheap once again). kalau mau open minded pun, ada batasan jg. bukan suka hati mau bagi guys sentuh2 ur body. again, u r a GIRL. omg, correct me if i'm wrong. do not make me hate u once again. i lost my respect to u before, and it seems after i rebuilt it back, it's gonna blow once again. u want sampai u kena rogol ka baru u mau shut up? don't talk like u know everything bout girls and boys because u don't! obviously. yesterday u talked about our "obsess" (fuck u again) with a guy and u know what he said? he doesn't support u at all. that's a shame u know. shame on u. SHAME ON U!!! u said u terus terang punya orang kan? so why talk behind us? come see us face2face and tell us, apa yg u x puas hati. bkn u yg kena molest worr, so u don't know. u really doesn't look like a bitch, and i can't understand how can u look this matter as simple as ABC? u r more caring towards the guys yg molest2 org than the victims. what's wrong with ur fishy head? i am so damn mad at u right now. UNGKIT LAGI! why u wanna ungkit balik ni perkara? i thought we already done? and ya, i wonder why u sibuk2 hal org? bkn u yg kena molest. go get a life bitch friend! wah lao... u really pissed me off. shit.

annoying

i am really ANNOYED by some people lately.
feeling stress and sometimes wondering how STUPID they can be?
i have my own life, u also have yours.
why don't u just let me live my life peacefully,and u live ur life the way u want?
just, stop and shut up the craps okay?
wtf~

Slow Tears

I look up
as a tear rolls slowly
down my cheek
I think about better days
and wonder if I'll feel that way again
you look at me
with those eyes I know so well
always serious, so deep and insightful
as though you're always in control
But not today
not now
Now you look so scared
like for once you don't have the answer
I gaze at you
looking deep into those hazel eyes
Hoping to understand
why you've said those things you did
I wonder for a moment
if this is all a dream
if I shall wake in the morning
and be relieved
you look at me
with a confusion I have never seen
slowly pull me towards you
and wipe the tears from my cheek