cuti cuti cuti

ngee... mcm tiada benda sy mo ckp hari ni.. today we went to visit IWK again. makin hitam suda ni. panas bh cuaca. anak kucing pun boleh mati. huhu.

oh ya, im going back home this friday for raya holiday. best3, can't wait. really miss my family especially my little bro. wait for me Cicil yang nakal.

and i have to return here on 8th of September. haiz. padahal cuti sampai 10hb. this is because we have a health program at Siamese village. the residents there are very excited when knowing we will make a health program at their village. tidak pernah dibuat di kampung orang siam, tu lah tu dorang excited. bagus kan kami? hahaha. :p

and as the holiday getting nearer, my roommate and i are trying hard to eat all those foods in fridge. wish us luck. lol. bye for now. need to go. :)

starting all over again~

oh yeah oh yeah i know i haven't been blogging like ages! actually there were some reasons for it but lets just ignore about it okay. starting now i want to open new book, new page and more pages are coming with the new me. new me? i don't even know what was the old me. :P

okay, so now where do i start? name, location, work, age, blah blah blah... it doesn't matter. currently having my practical as a Health Inspector at PLK Jitra. gonna spend a year in here then heading back to LOVELY college. oh, i'm going back every semester end for my final exam. =.=

for now things are all okay. every little things that makes me down now i just put it aside. i don't wanna think about the past anymore. i mean, i'd just stop doing that for now. no good for me. and i realized many things has changed. and i don't know whether that changes are good or not. but just let it be and see where it's leading me.

gonna write more later. don't mocking at me for my lame blog. i can sue u. haha. :P
and oh yeah don't forget to follow me on Twitter. gonna spend more time there. :)

healing a broken heart

it's still hurts. my heart still aches. for all of these times, i still can't get over u. i hate the fact that i'm missing u whenever u are far from me. and yet, i'm still trying to heal this broken heart of mine.

exam!

i only have 4 days left before the final examination. good. it means i can go back home after a half year over here. too many to read. and my gastric keep attacking me especially at nights. huh. fuck exam.

sigh..

the sky seems so dark, and my heart is full of sorrow. i wish God would give me some happiness. thinking of u is not the thing that i love to do. i used to, but now i really hope i wouldn't thought of u anymore. how could i possibly forget about u when all of these times u were the one who can make me happy and cry for the next minute? please.. just go.. i am alone in this thing since the first place. u were never there to comfort me. so let me alone fighting all this, i already used to it without u by my side..

empty cans

i may not be perfect, everyone's not perfect. but i'm trying my best to be myself. i don't wanna be a FAKE. just like a hard cold plastic, they don't have any feelings. if u wanna be a fake person, at least u know how to do that. if not, u just might hurt others. seeing ur fake expression whenever u tell them "Oh u look so cute", "I love ur dress" and blah blah blah is just make others annoying, others who realize that u'r not saying those words from the bottom of ur heart.

and i just can watch u do it over and over again. *sigh*

just one thing, if u being fake with me, i'm gonna do the same thing. only worst. so from now on, u better watch ur mouth, think first before talk. do not talk with empty head. someone told me u talk just like empty cans.

just a thought

okay, i know i did not blogging recently. i just don't feel like wanna blogging. anyway, nothing special today that makes me wanna blog something. i just feel wanna blogging, that's all. haha. haiyo. so lame oww. i blogging whenever i feel like i want to. it's fine with me.

o ya, exam is coming soon, it's on next week to be exact. and like usual, this brain of mine still not functioning well to absorb all the notes. duh. how am i gonna survive in this. i'm always sleep in class, not paying attention and always got blur. kotoh.
i'm the kind who will study at the very last minute, and when that thing happen, my head feel like wanna explode. i can't help it. i can't study early. it ain't working on me. cuz i will easily forget everything back if i read early. my my... i wish i had some tools to fix my head.

it's time to wipe away all the dust from my notes. luckily it haven't reach 1 inch, i still can wipe it easily. meaning i did touch my notes mah... touch only la.. hehe. and now i can feel like my head is spinning around, maybe because i have took two mugs of coffee, and actually, am just wake up. hehe. there's still lot more to read of, haihhh.... see, know how to sigh but don't know how to change. lazy pig. =.='

o ya... suddenly i remember. there was something special happened. one of my friend, whose i said never want to keep in touch with me anymore, suddenly contact me back and said sorry for everything. God i'm so happy. i prayed for that thing every night to happens, that she will forgive me. and yes, God has opened up her heart for me, to accept me as a friend again. :):)
i think i have blogged about her last month or last few months. everything's back to normal, my life seems happier cuz i'm feeling ok. at least for now. :)

i wish everything will be ok. i mean, everything. i love myself. :)