unhappy hols

it's been a week since i'm home. it was not my intention to take a leave a week early before the holidays. i was never intend to go back home actually on this holidays. but something came up, and i rush going back to my hometown. have u read my last blog? that's why i am here right now. everything's been settled down and i hope everyone is okay now, especially my late cousin's family. it's a sadden fact that someone who so close to you suddenly leave you without saying anything. but we have to move on. that's life. everyone will go back to see their creator one day. and maybe just by saying these words makes me look that i'm okay with it, actually am not. but i try my very best to let go of what had happened and continue living. i'll be fine, everyone will be fine. we will, don't we? :)

and as for now, i'm so worried bout my proposal. i need to submit my proposal of research after this holiday. and i didn't have anything with me right now including my lappy, everything's inside it. i was in rush last week i didn't bring anything to here. and i haven't yet meet the officer to ask some data to be used for my proposal later. i'm going to be very busy as soon as i come back to Jitra later. it will be a bit difficult, but i believe i can do it. i believe in myself.

it's late. gotta go.

R.I.P Jed Lim, we love you.

My day started with a shock and sad news. Today, a dearly beloved cousin of mine has gone to see God. It was all out of sudden. I was shocked and burst into tears when I heard the sad news early in the morning. In fact, I'm still in shock and hard to believe that he was not here anymore. We can't see him anymore. He has gone forever and never will come back. He was such a good kid to his parents, a very nice friend towards everyone. He was one of the best person I've ever known. And I guess God loves him more than we do. That's why He took him when he was still very young at his age. I wanted so much for him to be still alive in this world but maybe he belong to up there, somewhere in heaven. I believe that God will take care of him, sending him the angels above to guard him. Dear cousin, if only I knew you will leave just like this, I would spend my time a little bit longer with you. Just a little bit longer will do. I just want another moment with you. I am so sorry for never spent so much time with you. And thanks for always helping me out when I need you. I will cherish every moment we had spent together. I'll treasure our childhood memories forever. Sure, it will never be the same again because you are not here with us anymore, but I'm sure that you are alive in everyone's heart. We will always remember you, as a great person that ever being there with us. We will miss you and we'll keep on living for you. Rest in peace our dearly Jed Lim. =')

                                God's finger touched him, and he slept.

bored

today:

1) watch drama

2) watch drama

3) watch drama

4) sleep.

tomorrow:

1) research? 

to be honest i actually start almost nothing since get back to practical period. i just, lazy. ya im lazy. ohh!

have a little faith

talking about u is one of the thing that i used to do before. i love to tell about u to my friends. but slowly, i really don't feel that kind of feeling anymore. we are not that close anymore. that's the fact and from the way i see it, there's no way things could get back like before. and my heart is torn apart, seeing how we have gone this far. if only i could do something to get things back like they used to. but things seems like don't fall into its places at this moment. how can we survive this? i really want to see us happy, just like before. and it breaks my heart every time we are together but we don't feel as one. i pray to God to bring us back together, and hoping that all things were settled finely. we could be happy if we chose to be happy. if u can't think for the sake of the other, please think for the sake of me, for the sake of us. please..
i know there's some time when u really feel that u can't bear it any longer, feels like u wanna just leave. but then come to think of this, consider this is just a test from God for us. if we united as one, we can make through this. it hurts but please hold on. just hold on.. just don't crush everything that we have up until now. we can do this. trust me. we're all in this together. no one is left out. i love u.

happy newwwww year 2012 peeps!

waaaa 2012 suda ka?? wakakaka. thank God i made it to 2012. hehe. :)
btw, this year gonna be my final year and final semester at college! hehe. i really can't wait to finish my study this year and start to work. yaiiii ahahaha. surely i'm gonna miss my college's life and yes if got any chances i will further my study. bagus kan anak Uncle Ben, mo study lagi kunun. hahaha! :p
so my resolution for this new year is to moginum study well and get my diploma. wahaha! i pray that everyone will achieve their dreams this year ok! so, let go of everything's that brought us to miserable state and start a new page in our lives aite. :)
and last but not least, Happy New Year of 2012 to everyone! time to repent isn't it? ahahaha. :D